27 September 2010

人生无常

一些事情的发生
会使人变得常熟
会使人想要坚强

明明此刻还在你身边的
下一刻或许就不在了

不是理所当然之后
就永远不会失去

无法预知无法停止
事情的发生
惟有面对
我是这样想的

以前的生活
都一帆风顺
直到家里发生了事情
我必须要去面对

刚开始时
可以在夜里一个人抱着枕头
哭到累了
睡着了

到此刻
已经习惯的坚强
你不会看到我的眼泪
你只会看到我的强势
你不会看到我的脆弱
你只会看到我的积极

因为我觉得
每个人的人生
都会有起伏
只是时机的问题

可能眼泪
把人装饰得楚楚可怜
旁人看了
给予所谓的怜悯

但是我不会这样子
因为我要变得更强大
我要保护我最亲爱的家人
还有我在乎的人
如果我也不坚强
那么谁来保护他们呢?

可能这些事
还不是我这种年龄应该面对的
可是既来之 则安之
努力坚强的面对
比流眼泪更有建设性

希望他会醒悟
希望他不要得过且过

爸爸
要快点好起来
看到你一个人呆在医院
我好心疼
爸爸
你叫我不要撒娇
我没有哦
我在家很乖
你要快点好起来
我要我们一家人
健健康康
开开心心的一起生活
一起吃饭
一起看电视
一起去逛街
爸爸
我不要你生病
。。。。。。


只是希望
这是考验
不是结局

07 September 2010

难以抉择

快一年了,说长不长。可是也算是一段时间了吧。
习惯了。是好的吗?
习惯了,意味着不易改变了。
当理智与感情,不再是平分秋色了。
当理智已远远超越感情,我知道,是时候该结束了。

其实,两个人在一起,最重要的是快乐,舒服。
一开始的时候,是这样的呀。
只是时间久了,我知道你依旧爱我,可是我开始抱怨。
开始对你感到不满。
我想让你改变的,可是到了这一刻,我还是看不到,我想要的改变。
我看到的是你的得过且过,我看到的是你没想过要改变。

当我开始觉得,很难再要撑下去的时候,心真的很痛,痛得真的透不过气。
我们在一起,仿佛没在一起。
我喜欢逛街,你不喜欢。
我喜欢看戏,你不喜欢。
就算真的很穷,我不介意。因为我爱你,所以我什么都不介意。
以前从不急着去回顾那些我们在一起的画面。因为已经习惯了。

但是这一刻,我回想过去。想起我们在一起的时候。
心靠得很近的感觉。此刻却突然有了距离。

我不想再成天担心这担心那。
你说过的一些话,让我觉得莫名的压力。
而且又没有发现,我们最近都很少聊天了。
不是你在忙,就是我睡了。

如果说,我们结束吧~
你觉得,这样,好吗?

06 September 2010

my fault

since getting close with you, i realised that something gonna happen soon..
We argue frequently.
Why we going to argue?and felt anguish?and hurt each other?
There must be something between us..
I'd never forget this morning.
Why you can found those photos?that's fate to be, i think.
The moment still linger in my mind.where the air and the heartbeats freezed, we have nothing to talk suddenly.we don't know how to face each other.maybe just only i can't face you.i know that i hurt you..
I'm not going to let you view those photos..and you refused to grab it from me.you just keep mute.silent.and you let my hand down.my heart was broken on the moment.can't even control my tears.let it shed.and i'm shivered..
After a while, you try to ask me what i'm going to do..i really stucked and never answer you..
I can see your tears in your eyes..and it dropped down..i can feel the pain strongly..this was the first time i saw somebody's tears is shed because of me..
I can feel that you HEART me.

give me some time..to decide..

Realised.

we've been for a long time.
but we have no future.
this is the SECRET buried in my heart, that I never tell anyone before.
perhaps others would be surprised,
or even disdain, and even think it's a shame.
I felt the stress when being with you, as the time goes by.
I need to worry about you,
and now I have no strength.
I need to be cared,
to be love by someone else.
It becomes a heavy matter to carry on.
when I felt that you can't live well on your own.
there is a huge distance between us.
personalities , hobbies , even temper .

I'm extremely tired
and need a time for myself.

05 September 2010

FRIEND

Everything seem changed
but it maintain actually.

we keep on the friend status
so we not going to apart
in the future

FRIEND is the best way for us :)

02 September 2010

JOKE

your JOKE might just want to tease me, but it hurt me, badly
maybe I'm not dare to step into a relationship with you
you're so charming
and in fact there are much more pretty and sweet girls
I can't ensure those girls are not close to you
I'm lack in confidence..
to getting closer to you
if I choose to keep a distance with you
doesn't mean you're not in my heart



because I can't predict
who will you meet in next station
that into your heart